How You Are So Much More Than Chronic Illness
I remember my first time.. Do you remember yours?
When your doctor explained you had a chronic illness? Receiving that conclusive and convincing confirmation can often be a mixture of shock, disbelief and dread.
Suddenly your whole world is different. You’re confronted with instant fear. You have tons of questions. And you leave with so much uncertainty.
You ask yourself: what now? What’s going to happen next? Will my body deteriorate more and more? Will I be able to continue work?
Personally I was in a positive and naïve state of disbelief, as I would describe it. I just thought, okay, well, just give me a pill or some kind of remedy and I’ll be fine. It will be over. Not strange really, considering that this is how it happened before in the past when I experienced little ailments.
The fact that this was labelled chronic and meant, in conventional medical terms, not curable, was something my brain did not compute with. I was stunned if anything, because I had been very healthy all that time.
But what hit me the most, and I believe is what influences all who are confronted with this kind of experience the most, is the certainty and authority of the doctors and specialists who tell you (quite often!) that there is no cure and that it is indefinite.
This is what causes a major problem.
When a doctor shows you you’re sick and tells you you’re sick, chronically, then this is the belief, the seed, that gets planted in your mind. And from that moment you believe and see yourself, unwillingly and unknowingly, as chronically ill.
Instantly a new identity is created that is so strong and powerful, it is then from that moment how you see yourself.
The ‘trick’, or better put, our loving practise is to know and see ourselves beyond the experience of illness. Beyond this false identity.
You and I are SO much more.
Chronic illness is simply put something we experience. But it is not who we are. Nor does chronic illness define us.
Our loving practise is to see and keep believing in our true nature and values. Our innate state of being: spiritual beings filled with love, passion, joy and purpose. Here to create and add to the world through our unique gifts and talents.
And let’s not forget, to enjoy ourselves.
This can only truly be experienced when we express our perfect authentic selves. And yes, I use the word perfect. Because you and I are perfect exactly the way we are and who we are meant to be.
You can only be you. And I can only be me.
And this is how it is meant to be. This is our natural state of being through which we experience joy.
So, let the label of chronic illness be something no more than what you experience. And no more than that.
You define who you are.
Do you feel defined by chronic illness? Please share your comment below. I’d love to hear from you!